*pulls bikini bottoms juuust to where they cover the scars*
Legitimately being too drained to even cut, even when you want to.
Me: “I should have 800 calories so that I dont binge later…but nevermind, that’s too many!”
Me later after having 200 calories: I WANT ALL THE FOOD! FUCK ANA I DON’T EVEN CARE!!
*wearing a light jacket in the blazing summer so that your wrists are covered*
Getting more depressed when you think about how depressing it is that you cant stop being depressed.
Fasting and feeling proud, then breaking fast and binging and feeling disspointed, so you fast again to make up for it…etc etc
*finally losing some weight but then realizing you can’t even wear a bikini because your scars will show*
“I already ate”….but it was 2 days ago.
Criticizing the thinspo models for being too fat.
